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Essay 24

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Essay 24

Essay 24

Peek outside

Peek outside

Peek outside

Peek outside

3 Apr 2024

3 Apr 2024

3 Apr 2024

3 Apr 2024

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In my first house, I was too short to look outside. The balcony was tall. My memories remain of running around in corridors, waddling in and out of doorways, unaware of anything beyond.

The house I lived in between the ages of 5 and 13 had a bedroom window that faced other bedroom windows at a 90-degree angle. Almost every window had a kid. On days it was raining or too hot, we sat next to our AC vents and chatted. When my mother would start shutting windows, it was either time for mosquitoes or a scolding. Our living room window overlooked the building lobby. When the clock struck nine, I would look down and locate my mother. She would be talking to other mothers in the lobby. I would loudly scream and ask her for dinner.

Mumbai homes mostly face other people’s windows. People draw their curtains at all times. Because bored kids and uncles peek. Sometimes, I would look into homes and see what they were watching on TV. Or I would watch a mother cook a meal in the kitchen. I would stare at windows with curtains drawn, in case someone was hiding behind them. Sometimes, confident people would wave. I would quickly look away.

When I first moved to Bangalore, I realised there was not much to see from any window. The buildings in Bangalore were much further apart. And I never saw anyone on the balconies. The only time I realised there were people living around me was when everyone banged their utensils during COVID. My next house in Bangalore was a terrace flat facing a building which every landlord on the street used to call ‘Rahul Dravid’s house’. Whether it was the truth or it helped rent prices I am not sure but I never saw him there. I looked.

In my first house, I was too short to look outside. The balcony was tall. My memories remain of running around in corridors, waddling in and out of doorways, unaware of anything beyond.

The house I lived in between the ages of 5 and 13 had a bedroom window that faced other bedroom windows at a 90-degree angle. Almost every window had a kid. On days it was raining or too hot, we sat next to our AC vents and chatted. When my mother would start shutting windows, it was either time for mosquitoes or a scolding. Our living room window overlooked the building lobby. When the clock struck nine, I would look down and locate my mother. She would be talking to other mothers in the lobby. I would loudly scream and ask her for dinner.

Mumbai homes mostly face other people’s windows. People draw their curtains at all times. Because bored kids and uncles peek. Sometimes, I would look into homes and see what they were watching on TV. Or I would watch a mother cook a meal in the kitchen. I would stare at windows with curtains drawn, in case someone was hiding behind them. Sometimes, confident people would wave. I would quickly look away.

When I first moved to Bangalore, I realised there was not much to see from any window. The buildings in Bangalore were much further apart. And I never saw anyone on the balconies. The only time I realised there were people living around me was when everyone banged their utensils during COVID. My next house in Bangalore was a terrace flat facing a building which every landlord on the street used to call ‘Rahul Dravid’s house’. Whether it was the truth or it helped rent prices I am not sure but I never saw him there. I looked.

In my first house, I was too short to look outside. The balcony was tall. My memories remain of running around in corridors, waddling in and out of doorways, unaware of anything beyond.

The house I lived in between the ages of 5 and 13 had a bedroom window that faced other bedroom windows at a 90-degree angle. Almost every window had a kid. On days it was raining or too hot, we sat next to our AC vents and chatted. When my mother would start shutting windows, it was either time for mosquitoes or a scolding. Our living room window overlooked the building lobby. When the clock struck nine, I would look down and locate my mother. She would be talking to other mothers in the lobby. I would loudly scream and ask her for dinner.

Mumbai homes mostly face other people’s windows. People draw their curtains at all times. Because bored kids and uncles peek. Sometimes, I would look into homes and see what they were watching on TV. Or I would watch a mother cook a meal in the kitchen. I would stare at windows with curtains drawn, in case someone was hiding behind them. Sometimes, confident people would wave. I would quickly look away.

When I first moved to Bangalore, I realised there was not much to see from any window. The buildings in Bangalore were much further apart. And I never saw anyone on the balconies. The only time I realised there were people living around me was when everyone banged their utensils during COVID. My next house in Bangalore was a terrace flat facing a building which every landlord on the street used to call ‘Rahul Dravid’s house’. Whether it was the truth or it helped rent prices I am not sure but I never saw him there. I looked.

In my current home, my balcony faces a one-way road. The road has a personality that changes by the time of day. Early in the morning, there are dogs walking on a leash. Ollie spends all his time looking down and letting everyone know that they are crossing his territory from the 3rd floor. Then comes the school traffic and the school children. In the afternoon, the road is filled with people on a lunch or smoke break. It quiets down at night till about 11 when an annoying guy with a loud motorcycle rides by every day.

My other balcony faces a jackfruit tree and a coconut tree. The coconut tree opens up its branches right on our window. These trees belong to the house next to our building. I can see a gardener. They have been trying to make a vegetable garden for a few months now. Sometimes, I see a German shepherd running around like there is no tomorrow. I still don't know who lives there though.

I first started peeking outside because it was the best way to escape. Irrespective of what was happening inside my head or home, there was always a world outside. Quiet, moving, repetitive. Distant, soothing. Not mine. Now, I peek outside to come back to the present. On days that I have let my phone, my thoughts or anxieties get to me, I join my dog and we both stand on the balcony, peeking outside. Watching as an ever-changing but same world gets on with their day.

In my current home, my balcony faces a one-way road. The road has a personality that changes by the time of day. Early in the morning, there are dogs walking on a leash. Ollie spends all his time looking down and letting everyone know that they are crossing his territory from the 3rd floor. Then comes the school traffic and the school children. In the afternoon, the road is filled with people on a lunch or smoke break. It quiets down at night till about 11 when an annoying guy with a loud motorcycle rides by every day.

My other balcony faces a jackfruit tree and a coconut tree. The coconut tree opens up its branches right on our window. These trees belong to the house next to our building. I can see a gardener. They have been trying to make a vegetable garden for a few months now. Sometimes, I see a German shepherd running around like there is no tomorrow. I still don't know who lives there though.

I first started peeking outside because it was the best way to escape. Irrespective of what was happening inside my head or home, there was always a world outside. Quiet, moving, repetitive. Distant, soothing. Not mine. Now, I peek outside to come back to the present. On days that I have let my phone, my thoughts or anxieties get to me, I join my dog and we both stand on the balcony, peeking outside. Watching as an ever-changing but same world gets on with their day.

In my current home, my balcony faces a one-way road. The road has a personality that changes by the time of day. Early in the morning, there are dogs walking on a leash. Ollie spends all his time looking down and letting everyone know that they are crossing his territory from the 3rd floor. Then comes the school traffic and the school children. In the afternoon, the road is filled with people on a lunch or smoke break. It quiets down at night till about 11 when an annoying guy with a loud motorcycle rides by every day.

My other balcony faces a jackfruit tree and a coconut tree. The coconut tree opens up its branches right on our window. These trees belong to the house next to our building. I can see a gardener. They have been trying to make a vegetable garden for a few months now. Sometimes, I see a German shepherd running around like there is no tomorrow. I still don't know who lives there though.

I first started peeking outside because it was the best way to escape. Irrespective of what was happening inside my head or home, there was always a world outside. Quiet, moving, repetitive. Distant, soothing. Not mine. Now, I peek outside to come back to the present. On days that I have let my phone, my thoughts or anxieties get to me, I join my dog and we both stand on the balcony, peeking outside. Watching as an ever-changing but same world gets on with their day.

In my current home, my balcony faces a one-way road. The road has a personality that changes by the time of day. Early in the morning, there are dogs walking on a leash. Ollie spends all his time looking down and letting everyone know that they are crossing his territory from the 3rd floor. Then comes the school traffic and the school children. In the afternoon, the road is filled with people on a lunch or smoke break. It quiets down at night till about 11 when an annoying guy with a loud motorcycle rides by every day.

My other balcony faces a jackfruit tree and a coconut tree. The coconut tree opens up its branches right on our window. These trees belong to the house next to our building. I can see a gardener. They have been trying to make a vegetable garden for a few months now. Sometimes, I see a German shepherd running around like there is no tomorrow. I still don't know who lives there though.

I first started peeking outside because it was the best way to escape. Irrespective of what was happening inside my head or home, there was always a world outside. Quiet, moving, repetitive. Distant, soothing. Not mine. Now, I peek outside to come back to the present. On days that I have let my phone, my thoughts or anxieties get to me, I join my dog and we both stand on the balcony, peeking outside. Watching as an ever-changing but same world gets on with their day.

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